I love my family.

My dad had affair with a woman who was suffering miserable marriage when I was 18 years old.
When her husband discovered their affair, he came to our house and blamed my mom because he thought that was her fault.
He was yalling to my mom.
"Why you didn't take care of your husband? Therefore your husband cheatted with my wife!"
Me and my brother againsted him without fear even though he was very big man so we kick him out of our house. I was really scared because I thought that my parents will be divorce.
However, my mother have forgived my dad one month later and it was so easier than my imagination- anyway, everything seems fine.

After heart broken from Brazil, I came back to Montreal and I said myself 'you are OK Mink! You still have family that really love you so much!' Three weeks later, my parent signed paper for divorce. I asked my mom why it have to be and she told me "I hold myself to do not divorce until your wedding because I dont want to make my daughter walk wedding aisle alone."
She started cry so do I. I was feeling guilty to her that I didn't recognized her pain and agony.

I couldn't focus on anything and I couldn't sleep before drunk, so one day I drunk in bar alone and passed out. When I open my eyes I was in my friend's house and she told me one waitress found my cell in my poket and call to her.

I stopped being drunk because now I live with my friend but I still need time for cure. However I still love my family members whenever and whatever even though my mom and dad don't live together anymore.

Affair in Brazil.

While I travel around Sao Paulo, I met a guy who has Korean father and white Brazilian mom. His Korean was terrible and awkward because he never been Korea and his first language is Portuguese. However, even though I can't speak Portuguese we had conversation because he finished his university in USA and we became close friend. My flight to return to Montreal was a week later but he ask me to stay longer so i delayed my flight 2 weeks more. During that 2 weeks he visit me everyday, then we were fall in love with each other. Thus I delayed my flight a month more and Air Canada receptionist told me this is final delay. Carlos (his name) ask me to visit his parents because they were curious about me so I said OK. His father was really sweet person I ever met and his mom was nice to me too. They treated me like their daughter and his father told me he want to have daughter in law as soon as possible. Almost 5 times a week, I had dinner with his family and I started to have dreaming about marriage. One day, his father had calling me for lunch and I said yes. When I went restaurent to meet his father, I recognized his father's face was pale so I asked him what's happen. He told me he have to tell me something about Carlos-and it was his confession. He told me Carlos has 2 chlidren who have different mother and Carlos's daughter who is 4 years old lives with her mom but his son who is 8 years old lives with Carlos's parents. He felt guilt because he knows that Carlos never told me about his children. I returned my hotel room and drank all alcohol in mini-bar. Carlos asked me to open the door but I refused to face with him. Next day, I left Brazil with broken heart.

mink's first trip in blog

This pic is when i was in Brazil.

January 31st, 2008.

I had haircut at that day.

However, I was so unhappy because

hair designer cutted my hair much shorter than

my order. Anyway, I look so cute in this Pic.